It has been a long wait for our son. We are blessed that we started early, anticipating that adoptions can be uncertain. We wanted to keep as much chronological space between our son and Rosebud as possible. Well, not too much. Just the right amount :)
All that to say, it is not a complaint that adoption takes a long time, but rather an expectation. As we wait for our son, it is strange how life continues on and even stranger how easy it is to let thoughts of our son slip from our forethought. For one, it is painful, and and I tear up now as I think about my many feelings for my son and for the children waiting. For another, it isn't yet tangible. Our relationship has not yet been decided by a government and so it is slippery to hold onto it. Our son is an unidentified child, still mostly just a belief that our family shares that there is a child that belongs with our family. I have posted a picture that my husband has placed in his office. He used a google search to find a picture of Lesotho. Not sure how accurate :) the pic serves to make our son real, to keep our son in his prayers, almost like the bonding that begins when as a pregnant belly grows, making our son present. I found it to be such a sweet gesture.
The news on the adoption front is that the wheels have begun to slowly
turn again. A new Principal Secretary has been appointed, and by report, we hear she has a heart for her nation's children and is supportive of adoptions. It feels good to have positive reports. From what I understand she would like to have a matching meeting as soon as she can, but it is likely she will have a lot of work to do. Her department is changing and there be work on the infrastructure that will need tended.
When I read this news on another mom's blog, it was 11 o'clock at night and my brain flooded with what-if's? The logical side of my brain cautioned against optimism. But I indulged in the happy what if's and found it hard to sleep. It felt nice to allow hope in. Admittedly, my hope was laced with OMG there are so many logistics to work out! I am hoping that I will have these crazy anxiety thoughts enough before i need them to inoculate myself by the time our BIG news comes. In summation, nothing has changed for our family structurally, but I feel like my hope has been invited to come out of hibernation. It has always been there and was resting, but it will grow as a new season for our adoption brings about exciting changes! Spring is here! I am praying that hope, love, joy and patience will find nourishment :)
Our prayer requests stay the same!
Our son, his family, our family, orphans everywhere, and that God takes care of the logistics :)
I want to mention that we have been truly blessed, and The Lord has loved on us through our friends and family. My next post will be about these blessings!!!!
